What to write

After last week of going to write and not knowing what to write, I had the idea that I would make a list of things (topics) I could write about in the future. The next day I was thinking about it at work and came up with lots of things to in my head...but I never wrote anything down. And now this week I began feeling the same way I did last week. Now I don't want to do the same thing this week that I did last week, and say I don't know what to write so I'm just ramble. So I did a little more thinking on "what to write." Then I thought about how do I decided what to write when I am writing a story.

Honestly that's kind of hard to say. How does some one come up with a story? We just kind of do...? I make up stories in my head all the time. Most will never go anywhere and remain in my head, never to be seen. I have made up stories for as long as I can remember. I've have always had a vivid imagination. I feel sorry for any child who does not. And, honestly I think most do have a imagination, it's whether they are given the chance or chose to cultivate it or if its suppressed with other things. The easy access to media, and it even shoved onto kids today, I think really affects peoples ability to make up their own stories and entertainment. BUT that's a whole other topic I'm not sure I want to get into, at least not today. For me going up I was the youngest of a large family that always lived in the country. But I was several years younger then then my next oldest siblings, so I remember times of them not wanting to play with me and leaving me behind. I have a vivid memory of crying about just that happening and my mom telling me that maybe I would just have to learn to play by myself. That has always stuck with me. It's after that that I remember making up stories and acting them out by myself. I'm a grown adult, and I still kind of do this. I get an idea and I make up a story in my head off of that. And, the make of that story can go on for the rest of the day, or even over the next several days. Like I said earlier, most of these stores never leave my head and end up on paper. But, sometimes they do. And also I may come up with an idea in one of those stories that I really like. I may not care for the rest of the story, but that one idea stays with me. I continue to use it in different stories and ways until I hit on something I really like. So plenty of stuff just comes out of no where.

More often though, I will get inspired by something. Movies and books do it a lot. Sometimes real life things that happen too. Some times it can be the whole premise of another story that inspires my own story. Or it can be something small: an event, something that's said, even a feeling that story portrays.

Small tangent here, but I often like something from the way it makes me feel. For example, in How to Train Your Dragon 2, there's a scene were Hiccup is flying on Toothless. He has just had an argument with his dad and is flying about. He is sitting on Toothless but in a sitting position, he lays down on Toothless back. He might sigh, then he half beats, half grabs at the air as he yells out in frustration. I LOVE that scene! I can feel Hiccup's frustration. I have not used anything from that clip in my own writing, but I hope I can write in such a way that I can make people feel as that scene makes me feel.

Ok, trying to bring this around now. Other things often inspire me, and I can take something small and make my own story with it. Even if it is just how a moment in a movie make me feel, like the example above. When have I felt like that? When is an example of another time a person might feel like that? Then I might pare it with something else i have in mind. With this being the way I have thought for years, I have lots of random ideas and bits floating around in my head. I take different peaces, put them together, and I have a whole new story. So how do I write what I write? Well its hard to say. What ideas am I thinking about today? What have I recently watched or read? How do I feel? And what do I want to write about and feel? I don't know if I can really explain it. Maybe it is just the writer in me, I have the mentality of a writer. I do think that's a thing.

Maybe this would be better titled how to come up with a story? I don't know. (Add shoulder shrug.) This still felt pretty rambly, but I had a topic this time. :) If you read this or liked it let me know. That all for today.