Priorities

I did not write last week. I could not think of anything to write. Work got busy again too, a new project that hopefully will be finished in a few days. It left me no time to write at work, and as I said I could not think of anything to write either.

But I have been thinking about my priorities. Now we have likely all seen the illustration of a jar with rocks, pebbles and sand in it. In order to fit all the materials in the jar you have to put first the biggest items, rocks, in, and then the second, pebbles, and lastly the sand. If you put in things in any other order, you can’t fit everything in the jar. Well we all have rocks, pebbles, and sand in our lives. (This is actually from a sermon I heard.) Now the rocks are the things that are most important in our lives, my relationship with Christ, family, and even friends. Pebbles are things that we need to do, house hold chores and even work. Things we need to do and are important but should be secondary to our rocks. Sand is the extra, the fun things, and often they are completely unimportant. Now we can mix up the order we put these things in our jar of life, such as sand or pebble before rocks and so make it not all fit. But we can also make things rocks that should not be or make things that should be more important not important enough.

Now I think I struggle like a lot of people of making work more of a rock then a pebble. But also my writing should be more like a rock, and I have been treating it more like sand. And the sand in my life is taking up too much time. I have been aware of that for a while. But that work is being too impotent and my writing not enough…well maybe in the back of my mind I knew, but I did not stop to focus on it.

Well now I’m aware of it, but what now? Being aware of it is the first step, but it can not end there. I can’t change how much time I spend a work, and I think I do pretty well at leaving work at work, but maybe I just do not spent what time I have on other important things enough. So still more of a sand problem. I know things need to change, but I’m not sure what or how yet. Maybe it’s obvious to others, but sometimes we (me) have to figure things out for ourselves. Part of me knows I need to write more and outside of work. I have a fear that if I push to write more, than writing will become more work, and I will not enjoy writing. But part of me knows that is unfounded.

Now I need to change. And that’s never easy. I don’t know where I will go from here. Please pray for me. I need to get my priorities straight. I can make all the time in the world for the things I want to do that are sand, but I drag my feet when it comes to spending time on things that should be important, because I feel less like doing it. None of us like doing things that are less enjoyable but that is no reason to not do what I should.

Prayers are always appreciated and my God bless.