It's all coming home (sticking virus!)

Today it has come home to me just a bit more. Today was my last day of work for a while. As of yet, there are no virus cases in my county that I am aware of but a stay at home order has been issued. Now that store I work at is allowed to stay open but the gift shop part I work in will be closed down. I could work downstairs, but I am considered a person who is at higher risk. (I’m on immunosuppressants.)

It’s all a little weird. On the one hand, I don’t get sick that easily or quickly. This gives me a false sense of security. “I’m fine. I won’t get it. And if I do, how bad can it be?” But on the other hand, I have to stop and think more rationally. I am at higher risk. I really don’t know how bad it would be for me. Better to be safe than sorry. So I will be staying home.

Now I really don’t mind staying home. I am an introvert after all. Being home by myself is one of the best places. I also have plenty to do. I have lots of projects to work on and things I don’t need to do but with extra time on my hands, I can do. (I now will just need to make sure I am productive and not give in to all the time-wasting temptations I love.) I have plenty of food (and TP.) Staying home, while, is it bad if I say I’m kind of looking forward to it?

But on the other hand, this raises the fear and anxiety I feel. I like staying home, but knowing you need/have to? Not a great feeling. The pit of your stomach churns and you keep swallowing down the panic that wants to rise up. I don’t live paycheck to paycheck so I will be fine, but it’s a little disconcerting being off work and not knowing when I will be going back. I am an adult now and think about such things. It’s a weird jumble of feelings to feel.

So I will pray and remember my blessing. I live in a great community where everyone is being more rational and no one has really lost it. The church is the people and not the building, and they are wonderful. I have more than enough material goods. I’m not sick, at least yet. And I have a good God, who loves us all and cares about us even when the world seems to be falling apart. We will all do our best not to worry or panic. May we remember what we have and be thankful and grateful for it. I send prayers your way and will welcome them my way too, and around the world.

God Bless.